December 2010
Miami, Caribbean, etc etc, I’m leaving until January 8th. See you all in a week!
Have a great New Year.
I’m still not completely comfortable with falling asleep to silence.
Smelling like cigarettes might be something I...
Could talk about 2010 if I felt like it but really it was all too much. Leave the past in the past, I say. Blank slate.
Promised myself I’d be braver from now on.
@meghan
I’m eating Thai food for dinner, but Sam’s lasagna is second dinner. I find it’s best to eat like hobbits. No meal should be eaten only once.
It’s a good day when I see a friend and he gives me a dream catcher and plays me records and feeds me pie and lets me cuddle with his pets. And there’s still thai food for dinner with best friends and then Sam is home party and packing and tomorrow I wake up in maryland but pass out in Miami and then on the first day of January I’ll be on a boat sailing to who cares where.
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shiver.
brooklyntree asked: yes! a mandolin! its both of our favorite instrument and i totally surprised him! i think he really likes it!
brooklyntree asked: yes! a mandolin! its both of our favorite instrument and i totally surprised him! i think he really likes it!
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Facebook mostly just makes me nervous.
First, I was dreaming about a starving family. 8 children, and all they were given each day was 5 tiny “food supplement pills,” and I was furious. Then, I was forced by my family to be propelled through the ocean to France, where we boarded a gigantic cruise ship and I proceeded to spend the rest of my dream putting food on my plate. Salmon, rice, corn, cornbread, giant stuffed...
"Stop! Or I'll kick you in the testicles."
I love Bones and her attempts at cop speak.
Considering the circumstances, I’ve actually been fairly calm this past week or so. But today I woke up with panic in my stomach and it won’t let me be. Even though I’ve been more rational than possibly ever, things still catch up to me. People catch up, and the grip they have on me tightens suddenly and I’m left here like this. Can’t move, can’t breathe,...
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I don't know how to interpret other people's...
Matt Smith, y u so cute?!
(Watching BBC America all day all day all daaaay).
This year, our “big presents” (mine and my brothers) were new macbook pros. At first I was kind of upset, I mean, I love my laptop and it still works relatively well. I wasn’t expecting a new computer until grad school at least. But then after inspecting the new ones closely I found an inscription on the bottom, that said “But she owns a mac - RJS, in loving memory.”...
Don’t forget.
Probably the best part of christmas:
giving the cat and dog one of those little battery powered hamsters in the plastic ball that roll around everywhere. Hours of entertainment, just from watching them freak out over a fake rodent. In 12 years I have never seen my dog SO excited.
Also, my broke ass toes from a couple months ago started hurting again. I blame the cold weather/maybe this means it will snow!
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My cat is such a freak.
Cookies.
Dad already made apricot tarts. I’m about to make
Chocolate caramel cookies with sea salt
Green tea shortbread
Peppermint meringues
gettin fancy up in hurr.
It’s that moment where you realize the life you imagined for yourself is unrealistic, is gone, is not going to be how you pictured. The moment when you see that every single thing really is up in the air. Nothing is certain nothing is certain nothing.
Driving on long back roads at night, I like to play movie scores like Pirates of the Caribbean or Star Wars or Stardust and pretend that...
There are things I need to know still.
So I can move on with my life either way. Being stuck at a standstill isn’t working for me.
Time to go.
Having a hard time getting out of bed/packing for the holidays/deciding what to bring. I don’t want to be here anymore, really, but I don’t feel prepared to be anywhere else either.
It feels like I’ve been hiding for the last week and now I’m being forced to come back out again. Not ready.
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Nap.
Fell asleep at 7 and woke up an hour later. Kind of late for napping? But maybe now I’ll actually get stuff done tonight. Either way, I’m so cozy :3
Still haven’t had that winter break peace come over me yet though, but maybe once I’ve left baltimore I’ll remember what it feels like to not HAVE to be doing things constantly.
